Iceangel 说 :

完结篇

2012-01-28T04:31:00.000+09:00

该放手的还是得放手，
无论多痛多苦多累。

谢谢你，
曾经给过的那段有点超过的友情，
陪伴的那些夜晚，
那堆回忆和没有实现的诺言。

暂时，
我不想我们之间有任何的交际，
就算是普通不过的朋友也不要。

不清楚，
你是否故意，还是真的无意，
但那颗曾经付出过的真心，
再也符合不了你的残酷。

过去了，
是时候往前走了，
祝福你，
也祝福自己。

Bitter sweet

2012-01-20T05:10:00.004+09:00

It's almost 4 a.m. now. Attended the gathering I mentioned in my last post & is currently at my sis's condo doing preparation for my upcoming exam while looking at the breathtaking scenery outside . One more chapter to go & I'm done flipping through the whole text book but frankly , I don't remember much . Will have to read everything all over again to refresh my memory before I start looking at pass year papers . 3 days ! I have exactly 3 days left to finish up everything . Gonna give in my best & hopefully I don't screw it up !

Yesterday wasn't a good day for me . Had really bad mood swings & cried over small little things . Sometimes , I really disagree with the way my mum settles problems . But well , being the youngest at home , I can only keep my mouth shut in order to have a more peaceful life . On the brighter side , a brand new day has kicked off , so what's over will just remain in the past . Life goes on !

By the way , I'm craving for a body massage . Somehow think that I'm kinda get used to massage . Am I too young to say that ?! hahaa . Pray hard that I might get one tomorrow & have a good sleep after that before I continue with my revisions . As for now , I wanna get a short nap for about half an hour and continue studying till the sun rises , probably around 9.30 a.m.

Till then ..

Off to nap !

Awww . My face getting rounder ! (01/2012)

Last minute work !

2012-01-19T05:46:00.004+09:00

Oh Crap !
Exam is just few days away and I haven't started on anything yet !
It means , there won't be any sleeping time till exam ended ,which is on the first day of Chinese New Year .

GREAT !

On a side note , still considering if I should go over to my sis's place tomorrow .Although the environment there is pretty good ,but I still need some time to get used to it each time I overnight there. And at this moment , I GOT NO TIME TO WASTE . not even a second .Opps . Am not gonna attend the gathering tomorrow due to lack of time . Goodbye my beloved shashimi . *wave hand*

No point feeling regret .Just gonna try my very best to squeeze everything into my tiny brain within these few days .OH PLEASE ! I don't wanna screw up .This is the very last chance .

Feeling STRESS ! =(

Gonna learn from the lesson and never procrastinate anymore after this.Not to forget , will adjust my biological clock back to normal and start diet before I turn into an elephant RIGHT after exam . I promised .

Wish me luck & All the best to myself !


me & my mummy / 2011

FT Island Concert 2012

2012-01-18T05:03:00.003+09:00

BAMBOO & me !

As most of you already know ,FT Island held their first concert in Malaysia over at Stadium Negara last Saturday .Received a message from BAMBOO on the day itself telling me that she has extra tickets for the concert & ask me if I would like to tag along . I was at One U with my primary school mates attending a friend's author signing session at that moment but I still decided to go after my friend agreed to drop me there although it's weird to attend a concert where you only know the artists by their name .Oh , guess what , I thought FT Island was a group instead of a band all this while till halfway through the concert , I found them not dancing so I asked Bamboo about it . LOL . What to do ?! I'm just not that into K-POP .

The concert itself was pretty simple but I like it that way . Not much of mechanics of the lighting visuals, only basic 3D visuals with the main singer's amazing voice .

The only shortcoming of the concert was it's quite empty . Besides , majority of the VIP seats people don't seem interested in FT Island . Only few of us were cheering while others just sat there and watch like they're in a movie theater . (o.O)

Whatever is it , I still enjoyed myself at the end of the day . Will be going to Lee Hom's concert on March . CAN'T WAIT !! Woots .

幸福比一比

2012-01-16T05:32:00.009+09:00

凌晨了，
在 Look Out Point 吹过一阵冷风后，
脑袋似乎清醒一点。

决定了，
一觉醒来后，我要回家。
虽然一切还没好转，仍然有点乱，
但毕竟那里还是个我熟悉的空间，
做起事，生活起来，都比较舒服自在，
同时也不想打扰别人的生活。

刚花了点时间阅读一个部落，
作者是位我认识的天生乐子，
现实生活里的她总是嬉皮笑脸疯疯癫癫，
写出的文章，同样的带着她的乐观。

她说 :
其实每个人都是幸福的，
只是你的幸福常常在别人眼里。

不能否认，
大部分的人类都是视觉动物，
往往只会迫不及待的，
对别人外表的光鲜亮丽投向羡慕的眼光，
而忽略了自己所拥有的。

人生，是用经历的..

所以，
每个人其实都有属于自己不为人知的故事。

很多时候，
我们看到的只是表面，
是人类想要给别人营造出的假象，
想要隐藏自己的苦与悲的武装。

也很多时候
只因为我们不是当事人，
所以会觉得比起自己，
别人面对的根本没什么大不了。

是否想过，
在你眼中的小事，
对某些人来说可能已经算很严重了。
因此，
他们在面对你不放在眼里的小事时的感受，
不会好过你面对自己所谓的大事时的心情。
这样一来，相比之下，
他们也没有比较快乐。

这一切，
并非因为他人懦弱不坚强没看过大场面，
只是因为每个人对事物的接受能力不一样罢了。

事实证明，
谁比谁好，差不了多少，
懂得知足珍惜与感恩的人，
最好。

哪个我

2012-01-15T16:55:00.005+09:00

曾几何时，

我变得好健谈。

就算面对着磁场不合，

没有共同话题又不熟悉的人，

我仍然能滔滔不绝的说个不停。

静铭，你几时变得会开玩笑 ?!

静铭，以前的你好像不是这样的哦 ?!

当类似这样的话一次次的，

出现在我的日常生活里时，

心里总是产生一种，

觉得这个自己好陌生的感觉。

在曾经那段，

害怕陌生又慢熟的时候，

我多么的渴望自己可以是个健谈的人。

费了好多心思尝试改变，克服，

也没有任何的进展。

然而，

在没有预警下突然的转变，

却让自己措手不及。

总觉得，

健谈与我那喜欢安静的个性，

好像根本就不能成对比。

但我又并没有不喜欢健谈的自己，

只是需要多一点点的时间适应，

然后再学习，

看场合说话，分清楚该与不该说的。

一点一点地，慢慢长大..

一夜长大

2012-01-08T02:49:00.006+09:00

孤单，
并非因为一个人，
而是当心到几乎被冻伤的时候，
却不知可以从何处取得温暖，
一点点，就算是那一点点。

刚跟妈有点小斗嘴，
哭着睡着前，
突然有那样的感觉。

跳个 tone ..

你是否发现，
原来有很多事不需要学，我们天生就会。
比如说 : 遗忘..
没有人教我们遗忘，
可是偏偏大家都会。

再跳个 tone ..

当，别人不再存在于选择之中，
当，我懂得衡量值不值得那一刻起，
当，自己开始毫无顾虑的把自己当主角，
当，擦干眼泪冷静后，

我被自己的自私，吓到了。

人不为己，天诛地灭..
真的，是这样吗 ?!

自私，
同样的不需要别人教，
只要深深的爱一遍，
再狠狠地跌过一次，
自然而然，
就学会了。

我不懂..

要多能面对才算勇敢，
要忍耐多少才称得上坚强，
要多能宽恕才算大方，
要多能伪装才算成熟 ?!

可是，
在选择独自添伤，
不哭不闹，
不断祝福原谅，
不停的告诉身边的人我没事，
的这段时间，
我长大了。

变得更现实了，
变得更不在乎了，
变得自己也还不清楚是怎样的一个人。

没有好坏，
人，总需要改变，
因为改变，意味着成长。

p/s : 其实整篇都有连接的，
if only you get it . =D

It's Souvenirs

2012-01-07T06:58:00.008+09:00

It's a habit , I always ask for souvenirs whenever people around me go on a vacation but I usually don't receive anything . Guess I'm just that insignificant . LOL .In fact , it doesn't matter if they really get me one , most of the time I'm just asking for the sake of asking for it . Of course I'll be very happy if they really get me something . It's not the souvenirs that matter anymore , it somehow means they actually think of you while busy having fun .Isn't it warm ?! To me , it definitely is .

Speak of souvenirs ..

Quite a number of my friends went holiday during last Christmas + Year End break & this time , I'm very glad to say I did received souvenirs from few of them even though I didn't ask for it .

These are what I've got :

Gingerbread Man thumb drive & oil control film - Taiwan

It also comes with some chocolates , cookies & junk foods besides these two things .

Chopper's hat carving - Taiwan

Got this from my BAMBOOO . She has exactly the same one as me also . According to the One Piece anime , those who share the same things are buddy , so now both of us are BUDDY .


Homemade soap - Malacca

This is from Li Shien & Li Min . Li Shien , one of my very close friend , she always get me things whenever she went somewhere . She even got me a key chain from Zoo Negara . Where to find such a lovely friend ?! ♥♥♥

Lastly , thanks A LOT for all the souvenirs . Really appreciate it .

p/s : Wanted to blog about I-city but I'm now running out of time for revisions . Exam is just 6 days away and I know NUTS about math . On a side note , no idea why , I have this feeling where I think I'll visit I-city again soon , so I'll only blog about it if I happen to go there again .

Awww . It's already 7 a.m. now . Needa get a good rest now and starts preparing for my exam as soon as possible . Please , I don't wanna screw it up !!

Good Morning , World .
I'm off to bed .

1st Vocal class 2012

2012-01-05T13:49:00.008+09:00

Lyrics for the song - 你为什么说谎

Time flies ..

I have already been in Halo Forest Music School for two months .

Had my first vocal class of the year yesterday & I'm quite satisfied with my performance . Although I've made some mistakes , but at least I did better than the week before . Oh yeaa , we were asked take photo with David Koon ( the founder of halo forest ) halfway during class by one the stuff and heard that the photo will be coming out in a magazine .

Back to the topic ..

I always have problem getting the right tempo & pitching as well as controlling my voice variety . Need to figure out a solution for it soon . Anyway , there's still a lot of room for improvement & I promised myself to put in more effort into it .

Keep it up , JESLYNN !!

Not to forget , I got asked to prepare a more lively song for the next class . Will have to make up my mind what song to choose as soon as possible and start preparing for it . Before that , STUDIES COME FIRST . Exam in one week time and guess what ?! I haven't started anything yet .So dead ..

Till then , off to nap .

Year End Road Trip ' 11 ( Day 2 )

2012-01-04T02:41:00.008+09:00

View from the one of the room in the condo .

Woke up around 9 the next morning to have free buffet breakfast at Lakeview Restaurant .


Breakfast time

The food was average but I was feeling hungry so still ate quite a lot .

Back to the condo after that , played BANG again while waiting for the other two to wake up , then packed our stuffs , settled everything and check-out .

Since it's kind of wasting time to go all the way back to Malacca just to have chicken rice balls , we decided to head to Port Dickson instead .

Port Dickson

Oh .. do I mention that , this is the first time I been to Port Dickson in my life ?! LOL

Although the weather was killing us , we still had lots of fun .

Acting EMO

Road Trip 6A/2003

the guys

the girls

most successful jumping photo of the day

the ' COUPLE '

There's nothing much there actually. To make it more fun , someone came out with this idea which is to have a ' carry someone and run ' competition on the beach .

READYYYYYY ... ?!

GO !!

The group that lost have to take out their shirt .

Punishment

Had lunch at a place call Lukut before going home .

Conclusions , I did enjoyed myself throughout this trip . Wish to have more trips with you guys in the near future . By the way , Good Luck & All the best for those who are leaving Malaysia soon .

Year End Road Trip ' 11 ( Day 1 )

2012-01-03T03:57:00.012+09:00

After months of planning , we ( the primary school classmates ) ended up spending our last two days of year 2011 together at the World Heritage City .

Here are some photos :

Jonker Street

Red House

Lorry ? not very sure what it is . =S

Nangka or Cempedak ?!

A' Famosa

Waiting for our turn outside Satay Celup's shop

YAY .. Finally !!


Shy shy ?! o.O

To be exact , it is more like a food trip instead of road trip . We didn't visit much places , yet almost ate up the whole Malacca within few hours .

Satay Celup

Ate 148 sticks in total

Layers cake a.k.a supper of the night

Durian Cendul

Popiah , pork satay , wantan mee

Nyonya style Dumpling

Besides all these , we also had durian balls , durian puffs , Onde-onde & some junk foods . Well , I might miss out some other foods that we ate also . It's just TOO MUCH to be remember . We wanted to have the Chicken Rice Balls as well but the shop was already closed when we reached there .

Went back to the condo we rented which located at A'famosa resort around 9pm & it took us about an hour to get there . On the way walking up to our room after check-in , some of them were discussing about the ' manners ' before entering the room and they suggested to knock the door first . I was fine with it until we entered the room & found out there's no electricity . All of us were a bit worry at that moment but luckily the technician came few minutes after we called and asked for help .

The condo was quite big and it's more than enough to fit 8 of us . After settled down , we take turn to shower , chill a bit then played BANG ( a kind of card game ) till late night . We suppose to have pillow talk session before sleeping but then it didn't turn out to be a successful one . It's either we got nothing much to share or the trust between us is not there yet .Whatever it is , doesn't really matter .

It's sleeping time after that & I was having insomnia . Only fell asleep after the sun rises .

Last Chance

2012-01-02T04:02:00.005+09:00

This will be the LAST CHANCE ,

either you DO or DIE ..

so please think twice , JESLYNN LAW !!

ALL THE BEST & GOOD LUCK

hard work does pays off .

Hello 2012

2012-01-01T02:59:00.005+09:00

Hello 2012 ..

Please be kind to me . YAY

New Year Resolutions

- Get good grades

- Try to let go and move on

- Must always be well prepared for vocal class

- Practice healthy lifestyle & self-discipline

- Lose weights

     - Be more confident & independent
     - Improve English language
     - Stop procrastinating
     - Learn to play guitar and sing at the same time
     - Think before speak
     - Makes the one year one country trip plan happen
   - Save as much money as possible
     - Spend more time with mummy
     - Try my best in everything
   - Only appreciate people who treats you well
     - More optimistic
     - Work smart play hard

Happy New Year everyone ,

Let's ROCK the year !!

2012 见

2011-12-30T03:39:00.000+09:00

Ladies & Gentlemen ..

我们，

明年见。

希望马六甲行会很好玩 !!

2012 倒数 2 天 ..

你想好 New Year Resolution 了吗 ?

Choices ..

2011-12-29T04:42:00.003+09:00

Life is all about choices .

而我现在的选择是 :

要回家乡参与小 Baby 的满月酒，

还是要跟小学同学到马六甲。

现在的状况是：

可以去了马六甲后，

隔天早上直接赶回槟城，

只是时间除了赶，就是超级赶。

我很贪心的，

想两样都要，

却又很自爱的，

不想自己那么累。

毕竟我已经好久，

没有把时间留给自己了也。

距离 2012 倒数 3 天。

我还在这里罗嗦..

2011

2011-12-26T04:53:00.000+09:00

2011

对我而言，

是一团糟。

但其实，

也还好。

跌倒了，受伤了，哭泣了，

爬起来后我学会了，

把该放下的，放下吧。

倒数 2012 ，

还有 6 天 ..

还好，有你们

2011-12-24T01:40:00.002+09:00

还好那一年的我，

遇见了你们，

懵懵懂懂的成为朋友，

跌跌撞撞的一起成长。

还好，有你们，

可以分享，可以分担。

还好 ..

我们没有遗忘这段友情。

谢谢你们。

旋转秋千

2011-12-20T04:12:00.001+09:00


旋转秋千

冬京 09

2011-12-19T03:19:00.007+09:00


2009年12月，日本东京的某个角落.. I-city，一个类似这样的地方，勾起了我满满的回忆。好怀念那一年， 18岁的2009 ！这刻的我，同时也思念着，某个自己也不太清楚是谁的他..

小小想法

2011-12-18T04:39:00.003+09:00

不否认..

偶尔的我会有这样的想法 :

为什么对很多人而言，

要找个疼自己，

可以不懂哪来的本事提供物质生活的另一半，

好像不那么难 ..

诚实的说 :

现今这刻的我，

对爱情没有太多的憧憬或欲望，

只是在面子书上看到，

表姐的男友买了架 iphone 4s 给他，

心理产生那小小的感觉。

不否认，

大部分的时候，

我都处于现实到极点的状况。

却偏偏，

在爱情里，

现实不起来。

所以..

该不该换促进经济 ?!

我得慎重考虑..

挖洞跳

2011-12-17T02:00:00.004+09:00

我好会...挖洞给自己跳。

刘静铭，你在干嘛 ?!

='(

What's the time Miss Wolf ?!

2011-12-13T00:00:00.006+09:00

What's the time Mr.Wolf ?!

It's DIET time . LOL

没有要很瘦，

可是真的，

要开始节制了。

Huuuu ~

好胜心

2011-12-10T19:48:00.003+09:00

好胜心，

让我常常想成为出色的哪一位。

也是种好胜心，

让我害怕你所谓的‘她’不是我..

只因为好胜，

所以不愿面对自己的渺小，

没有勇气承认，

对你而言：我只是个普通不过的普通朋友。

很多时候，心里有数，

却只因为那强烈的好胜心，

只因为那好胜心，

而拼命的紧握。

更多的时刻，

我知道总有一天，

那好胜心会变成一把刀，

狠狠地往我心脏捅一下。

事实，我清楚，

却学不会清醒。

喜欢

2011-12-01T06:13:00.003+09:00

喜欢，只是

那份喜欢自私了，

变得成熟了，

有了保留，

有了衡量的能力，

有了理智。

喜欢，依然喜欢，

只是，

不再是可以牺牲一且的喜欢了。

只是喜欢，

一种淡淡的感觉，

一种浅浅的开心。

一种学会了先爱自己的喜欢...

火球人

2011-11-20T01:53:00.004+09:00

因为是火球人，

所以被派到一个需要念很厚的经的家，

学者面对。

因为是火球人，

所以被逼独立，

什么都靠自己。

因为是火球人，

所以害怕陌生人，

不善于在地球与人类社交。

因为是火球人，

所以拥有不一样的头脑另类的想法，

经常让别人搞不懂。

因为是火球人，

所以不完全属于这个叫地球的地方，

因此强烈的缺乏安全感。

因为是火球人，

一个混有地球人与火星人血统的生物，

因为是火球人..

在日子最难过的时候，

总是告诉自己:

因为是火球人，

一个被上帝派来地球学习生存的火球人，

一个没有同类，不完全属于任何星球的火球人，

所以得学会坚强的应付所有的磨练。

因为是火球人，

一个叫刘静铭的火球人。

争气点 !!

2011-11-08T02:15:00.002+09:00

起身看偶像剧吃午餐

回来继续看然后睡午觉

起身吃晚餐看电视

上网弹吉它再上网..

就这样，星期一没有了，

颓废的日子，延续着.. =(

这刻..

从这刻起我不要再虚度光阴了，

我总是对自己说，

然后继续眼睁睁看着时间从我手中溜走..

哎，哎，哎..

刘静铭，

争气点啦，拜托 !!

有种成功叫 ——— 坚持 ...

梦游

2011-11-07T00:06:00.004+09:00

今天的我，

看了人生中第一步3D的恐怖片

梦游..

更令人害怕的是，

整个戏院里仅有5只小猫，

我朋友与一位印度妈妈带着两个小孩。

印度人看香港电影 ?!
小孩看恐怖片 ?!
我也觉得怪..(=.=)

因为某些技术问题，

电影突然半场中断，

不久他们便离开了，

剩下

我和朋友。

还好..

剧情并非那么吓人，

音效却很让人毛骨悚然。

我不是个勇敢的女生，

却是个喜欢恐怖片的家伙，

或许这就是所谓的犯贱 ?!

哈哈哈..

平凡的日子，偶尔需要刺激来从新启动..

温馨建议：

SUBANG PARADE 的 MBO 戏院真的很不错，

沙发宽大舒服，又五颜六色，

住附近的，不防换个地点，

去那边看看电影。

如果..

2011-11-05T03:10:00.005+09:00

在想..

如果我当初没有放弃小提琴，

现在的我会有勇气选择念音乐吗 ?!

如果那年我没有到东京，

现在的我会是个即将毕业的法律生吗 ?!

如果当时我努力念书，

今天还需要重来吗 ?!

如果没有选择从日本回来，

现在的我又会念着什么 ?!

过着怎样的生活呢 ?!

如果没有那封信，

我们还能像以前那样，

聊得天荒地老吗 ?!

如果没有那个错误的决定，

我是不是就不用担当这个压力 ?!

如果我不是出生在这个家，

就不用念这本经，

背负那恐惧感，是吗 ?!

如果我漂亮一点，

如果我聪明一点，

如果我懂事一点，

如果我是个不会犯错的超人..

如果，

如果没有这些如果，

如果这些如果存在，

此时此刻的我，又会是怎样呢 ?!

如果..

如果可以选，

你又会要怎样的命运呢 ?!

如果..

如果可以从来，

你还会走同样的路吗 ?!

如果你想要有如果，

就去寻找多拉A梦吧，

它有时光机，

可以带你回去改变那个如果..

如果一切掌握在我的手中,
我想要宁静一点的生活,
但就算不能，

我还是会,

选择来到这个世界。

你呢 ?!

如果我没有那么长气，

你们就不用读那么多的如果了.. XD

好吗 ?

2011-11-04T01:57:00.005+09:00

不如我们和好，好不好 ?!

有股冲动，想要放弃坚持，

有股冲动，想这样对你说，

重点是，

真的，可以吗 ?!

: )

第三者

2011-11-03T03:07:00.007+09:00

对于第三者，你的定义是什么 ?!

华人祖先前辈留下来的观念里，

第三者是，介入一对恋人感情的那个人。

你是否，也是这样认为 ?!

曾经，我也这么觉得，

直到在东京生活的某一天，

有个香港朋友告诉我她觉得 :

[ 一段感情里，不被爱的那个才是第三者 ]

那句话，从此打乱了我对第三者的定义。

个人认为，

爱情没有模式，没有对错，

每个人都有权利寻找自己认为最适合的另一半，

无论你用了什么方式，

重点是，你要过得了自己那一关。

如果你问我，

我其实没有头绪应该怎样定义第三者。

我只能说:

我不认为第三者是坏人，

能轻易被破坏的感情本来就不可靠，

而且也有可能因为第三者的介入，那段感情的结束，

让不被爱的那个找到自己真正的幸福。

可是，

我不会允许自己成为第三者，

曾经的差一点，

让我很确定，我过不了自己那一关。

‘当局者迷，旁观者清’，

好像不太适合用在爱情里，

毕竟我们看到的，只是表面。

个人坚持认为，

不管是两个人，三个人，还是一群人的感情，

都该由，当事人自己 figure it out 。

哈..

我没有很清楚自己在写什么，

晚安。

我回来咯 !!

2011-11-02T03:51:00.003+09:00

Iceangel ..

因为某个人，某段感情，和一些原因，

而开始启用的网名，

就这样不知不觉的，跟我了快7年了。

哦，对了，

如果你好奇，

其实没有什么特别的原因，

只是纯粹想再次启用这个荒废已久的部落，

所以..

我回来咯 !!

衣服那里我会先放着，

因为我相信，

某天某月某日，

我会有那么一个突然想回到那里的冲动。

先这样啦，

用了好多某.. XD